the urge of wanting to be loved again, the urge of wanting to be with someone again, the urge of wanting to be like other sweet couples once again. thats naive. i know. thinking that i can cope this urge feeling is totally a dumb thought. looking at the photos we took back then is yet another dumb act. the stars seem to be smiling only at us. and yeah, thats pretty long ago. ok, thats it. i guess i've forgotten how hurt i was back then. no more u. no more u. i don wish to be confined, asked, grounded and controlled once again. so is love a sense of liberty or a sense of committment? ok, maybe both elements. somehow a lil bit more towards the committment would just discourage me to be with u. i'm 17 for goodness sake! there're lots more things to do. more areas for me to pour my committment into. FOCUS. no more distractions. YES! next week is oBs. gonna miss my classmates badly. i'll rmber the fish story. bad fish i caught. thats more fishes out. more masculine. bigger. FISH with BIG EYES. ok. i love to eat fish eyes. ok. i've done some questions on integration. i've been promoted. LIKE, so much of a HURRAY THING. man,mao,xw n les are ppl whom i cant bear to leave. pls know that my feeling for u guys is true! HAHAS. like, i don care how acty ppl can be. u guys just need to know, good times n bad times, i'll still be there. all u need to do, is just to call me. HEY.. one thing. i've changed my number. so pls save the latest no. what a lonnnnng entry. shall go dress up n go church.. TWINKS!